This Weekend ^_^

So this weekend I will be teaching a lovely fellow photographer Christina from Bella Expression lighting tips and how to use a flash ^_^ It is not really the first time I've taught some one things with photography but it will be the first time teaching some one that actually got into contact with me for it. So it will be very interesting and fun I think and hopefully she will learn alot and I'm able to explain things because when I taught a friend about photoshop she understood it but still didn't get how I did it lol...because of how I explained it.

I will also be doing a little shoot with two awesome models that day as well because they were willing to come down and help with my little lighting class. So be on the look out for new photos soon.

Besides that I do have a few other shoots in the works and a few ideas on how to get new people and get my photography a bit more known. We will see how that goes.

Be With Some One You Love

So while I edit photos on my computer I usually listen to music and lately I have no clue why I've been really liking those songs that have to do with loving some one who is not your current person you are with. Now in no way is it because I love some one else other than Kyle (my husband of 6 years) because well besides him there is no other guy in my life that I'm love like that I have guy friends yes but one is well not in my life currently (fine by me) and the other just got engaged (which I am totally happy for him ^_^....oh and her) so yeah there is no way no how that this is pertaining to me or really anyone I know they are just my thoughts....I told you in thr first post that this might happen lol.

Anyways back to my point the one thing I never understood about people in relationships is when they're not in love with that person anymore why would they stay? I've always felt that you can never control who you love or why you love them but you should always be with that person (unless they beat you or are bad for you in any way). Why waste your time in a relationship if you know it's not going anywhere and it might not be fixable, granted please do try to work it out before just giving up because sometimes it does end up some where wonderful.

Also with there being so many songs such as Fuel - Runaway and Hinder - Lips of a Angel if you love some one else why not just be with them (granted of course that person loves you back). I know it might sound bad but I truly would hope that if Kyle didn't love me anymore and found some other girl that he did love, while still being married that he would just tell me and let me know. Yes of course I might want to kill him who wouldn't but I rather end the relationship heartbroken but able to go live my life and find some one else maybe than be in a relationship wondering why he's acting strange or what ever.

I know there are so many people out there that don't want alot of relationships because they think its a bad thing but it's not it just mean you haven't found the right one yet. Just because your last relationship didn't work out does not mean you have to try extra hard on the next one because well that can just make it too hard on both of you. Also remember that there is no perfect relationship so the minute you find something you don't like about the person does not mean you need to bale (unless they hit you, you should punch them in the gut and RUN haha)

Well that is the end of this post....it is one of those late night rambles so sorry if it makes not since or what not but yeah. Be with people you love and who love you back, if the relationship is dead and there is no way to bring it back to life then get out of it, or if you love some one more and I mean that I can't live with out that person type feeling don't just let the person you're with tag along let them go and be happy.

Night.

Letter to Future/Current Self

Ok I know everyone has heard the question "If you could write a letter to your teenage self what would it say?" or "If you can give advice to your past self what would be?" that sort of thing.

Well yeah there is alot of stuff I would love to tell my past self about such as forget about that freaking guy he doesn't care move on it will do you so much better, or stop thinking about others too much. You know the usual stuff but I rather write a letter to my current/future self because well lets face it time travel will not be possible in my life time plus the past is what made me like I am today and well I like myself right now very much. So here we go a letter to my current/ future self

Dear Current Self,

Here are a few helpful tips that will make your life alot better for you.

1) Remember the past is the past and you can never change it. Things, people and events that happened in the past does not matter now, it's what either made you stronger and who your are today.

2) Live your life for the day and only plan for the future if you need to and not to far out. Do not plan to try and do something 5 years from now because you will be disappoint about your past if it doesn't happen. Plan little things yes but never be to disappointed in your self if things do not happen because life will be full of them and will soon be part of the past. There is no use letting stuff eat you up. On the other hand be grateful and excited when things do work out, and know that not giving up and hard work is what got you there.

3) Do not hold onto things from the past to tightly if you are the only one that seems to care about it. Those friends that you have called, text and emailed who never got back to you just brush it off your shoulders and move on. If they are your friends they will get back to you and be happy that they did but do not punish them or your self if they don't. Be grateful for the friends you do have and the times you are able to talk to them and stuff because though your friendships are not how you would like them to be just be glad they are there.

4) Do not judge people....period. It does not matter what they did, who they are or what you might think. It is their life and you have no control over it and you also do not know what you would do in their situation. So do not judge them for actions they did, it is ok to take into count what they did and how it might effect your relationship with them but that will be only between you and them. You are not perfect and have also made mistakes.

5) Try not to care about peoples lives more than your own. Help friends with problems, be there for them, be happy for them when great things happen but do not make their problems yours do not wonder why good things are happening to them but not you. You both may share wonderful, sad and happy moments together but your lives are two different strings that if you let them get too tangled up a knot will form and you might not be prepared for it. You've been throw this too many times in your life and ever single time you're the one that got hurt with out anyone else noticing.

6) Try new things with almost everything in your life. Try a new type of food, watch a new type of show, be creative with your photography by trying new concepts. You know what you love and that is great but if you try new things and are not afraid it might become a new favorite with out you knowing.

But most importantly LIVE!!!! be happy every single day no matter what happens. Live your life as much as you can. That doesn't have to mean going out all the time, traveling or anything like that as nice as it would be. It means just be happy even if it's hanging out at the house all day again and again make it a great day by reading a book that you like, watching your favorite more, listening to music that makes you smile and dance. You are the one that controls how you feel and even if the world might be crumbling around you try to find good in it and try to make your self smile. Sadness, heart ache, boredom, worrying, none of that is good for you all the time. They are things that you can never avoid but you can get past.

Love,

Well yourself of course.

Hello Everyone

Ok so I am going to be trying this whole blog thing again ^_^

This blog will not only have to do with my personal life (which is boring so bare with me) but also my photography which is known as BitterSweet Photography.

So I hope you all enjoy ready what I write, sometimes I will probably go off in a little coaster of point of view on things so sorry about that before hand. I decided I truly do not care what people think anymore and if I make some people upset so be it. This blog is going to be for me and figuring out who I am, it will probably also show me who actually cares about me. But I do promise this will not be a "poor little me" type blog I've been there done that and well that part of me is dead hahaha.

So welcome to my life I do hope that none of you think less of me and learn more about me.